It all looks different in the light

We got up at 230 this morning to walk 5 km for a charity!

We started walking at 4 in the dark and watched the sun rise and heard the dawn chorus of birdsong .

The walk is done every year for the charity pieta house who look after people with suicidal thoughts to try and prevent suicide .

There were people there who were walking in memory of lost loved ones who had been lost to suicide .

It was emotional , it was strange being up in the middle of the night. It was beautiful to watch the sun rise and hear the birds waking up .

The walk is called darkness into light . I thought it symbolised hope ,light at the end of the tunnel .

The darkness of depression feels like a hole out of which you can’t come !

We walked around a park for an hour and it was only when we were walking back to the car that we noticed deer , a strange little house , and even a pheasant .

My sister said on the way back to the car “my god everything looks so different in the light ”

And I realised the importance of that comment .

We had been in the same place but in the dark we didn’t see the beauty that was around us !

Being depressed before , I know how it feels and that’s exactly it . You are so lost in the dark space in your head that you can’t even see what’s in front of your nose !

When you rise in the morning, give thanks for the light, for your life, for your strength. Give thanks for your food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason to give thanks, the fault lies in yourself.

It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.
Aristotle Onassis






Look around you

I’m struck by the world around me now that I’m practising mindfulness!

How beautiful is the world around us !

We need to stop and look around us .

The miracle is all around us !

The cherry blossom is in bloom .

There are only 3 weeks every year that the cherry blossom is in bloom .

How does it know when to bloom , how does it know that now is the time !

I look at my 3 children . They are also miracles ?

Conception is like a lottery and baby development so complex and yet it occurs every day all around the world without any direction from us .

We worry so much and feel we are in control of so much although the miracles around us are not in our control at all !

These beautiful pictures were taken in our back garden. We’ve lived here along time and I’m only really seeing for the first time .

“From barren brown stems to glistening leaf-buds; from the leaf-buds to snowy virginity of bloom…It was like a flute song forgotten in another existence and remembered again. What? How? Why? This singing she heard that had nothing to do with her ears. The rose of the world was breathing out smell. It followed her through all her waking moments and caressed her in her sleep.”
― Zora Neale Hurston, Their Eyes Were Watching God







New day

The new day dawns , I spent 20 minutes with myself ! Instead of the usual jumping out of bed late trying to rally the troops to eat and get to school ,!

I had time to wonder what this new day would bring as I let the sleep naturally fall away from my eyes instead of the usual vigorous rubbing !

And I found this gem !

“Write it on your heart
that every day is the best day in the year.
He is rich who owns the day, and no one owns the day
who allows it to be invaded with fret and anxiety.

Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could.
Some blunders and absurdities, no doubt crept in.
Forget them as soon as you can, tomorrow is a new day;
begin it well and serenely, with too high a spirit
to be cumbered with your old nonsense.

This new day is too dear,
with its hopes and invitations,
to waste a moment on the yesterdays.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson, Collected Poems and Translations


Hanging in there

Hanging in there cannot believe I am still so tired after this recent illness . Yes , I know I’m still on antibiotics . Yes I know they floor you . Yes I know all of this and yet the wife and mother in me feels very disappointed with herself that’s she is not flying around again !’

Anyway so all I’ve had time to do is post some cool pictures I’ve seen through the web or Facebook .

Enjoy xxx