Hold my hand

As I walked my 6 year old daughter to school today , we walked and chatted as we usually do .

The sun was shining , the birds were singing as I took her beautiful soft hand in my hand , and savoured every minute !

Her hand is so small , and it won’t always be so small ! It won’t always fit in mine !

She won’t always want to hold my hand !

So we walked , and I just held her hand and wrapped the memory up in pretty pink paper , to save it in my mind !

I went to work and savoured this early morning walk !

We can often wander through life , rushing from home to school to work ,
and not really take the time to appreciate the here and now !

I went to my mums after work , she minds the kids on a Tuesday , and I shared my thoughts with her and I took her hand and I held it ! It mightn’t be as small as it used to be but I hope it felt as nice !!

“Once I had her hand, I never wanted to let go of her.”

― Ottilie Weber, Family Ties

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Look around you

I’m struck by the world around me now that I’m practising mindfulness!

How beautiful is the world around us !

We need to stop and look around us .

The miracle is all around us !

The cherry blossom is in bloom .

There are only 3 weeks every year that the cherry blossom is in bloom .

How does it know when to bloom , how does it know that now is the time !

I look at my 3 children . They are also miracles ?

Conception is like a lottery and baby development so complex and yet it occurs every day all around the world without any direction from us .

We worry so much and feel we are in control of so much although the miracles around us are not in our control at all !

These beautiful pictures were taken in our back garden. We’ve lived here along time and I’m only really seeing for the first time .

“From barren brown stems to glistening leaf-buds; from the leaf-buds to snowy virginity of bloom…It was like a flute song forgotten in another existence and remembered again. What? How? Why? This singing she heard that had nothing to do with her ears. The rose of the world was breathing out smell. It followed her through all her waking moments and caressed her in her sleep.”
― Zora Neale Hurston, Their Eyes Were Watching God

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Impermanence

My little girl has a wobbly tooth !

A huge part of me is scared , sad ,petrified !

I want to hold back time . My baby is growing up !

She is so excited ! She has shared with me all the things her friends have told her will move the process along ! She wishes she liked apples . Apparently a big bite will really speed the whole thing up !

She can expect the tooth fairy to check on the tooth tonight before she will decide how much it’s worth !

She is so happy and I feel so sad !

And yet I know from all my reading that impermanence is one of the Buddhist teachings which can help us to let go of this pain!

Nothing stays the same , we will never have this day again.

Parenthood reminds us of this every day

“The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.”
― Alan Wilson Watts

“Nothing in the world is permanent, and we’re foolish when we ask anything to last, but surely we’re still more foolish not to take delight in it while we have it.”
― W. Somerset Maugham

And so I need to take my guidance from her and ride this roller coaster called life with her !

I’m going to join her dance xx

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Living in the moment

Saw a man on the tv this morning . He has recently been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and has 6 months to live !

He said he never felt so alive the sun , the trees , food , everything is so amazing now ‘

He feels like he is tingling all over !!

It’s a pity that a terminal diagnosis is needed to appreciate life !!

We should all learn from this gentleman to appreciate life now !!

To live every day as if it’s our last .

“What day is it?”
It’s today,” squeaked Piglet.
My favorite day,” said Pooh.”
― A.A. Milne

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One day

One day at a time !!

They’ve been saying it and singing it for years !

Do you remember this

I’m only human, I’m just a man/woman
Help me believe in what I could be
And all that I am
Show me the stairway I have to climb
Lord for my sake, help me to take
One day at a time

One day at a time sweet Jesus
That’s all I’m askin’ of you
Just give me the strength
To do every day what I have to do
Yesterday’s gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Lord, help me today, show me the way
One day at a time

Do you remember when you walked among men
Well Jesus you know
If you’re lookin’ below, it’s worse now than then
Pushin’ and shovin’ and crowdin’ my mind
So for my sake, teach me to take
One day at a time

One day at a time sweet Jesus
That’s all I’m askin’ of you
Just give me the strength
To do every day what I have to do
Yesterday’s gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Lord, help me today, show me the way
One day at a time

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ALTERNATE 2nd VERSE:

Do you remember, when you walked among men
Well Jesus you know if you’re looking below
It’s worse now, than then
Cheating and stealing, violence and crime
So for my sake, teach me to take
One day at a time

Good lyrics about trying to live in the moment !!

All I have is today and I’m going to try and make the most of it !!

Going to switch my SAD lamp on too !!

Think it may help

Alexander technique

Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing I would choose pain

Having spent the last ten years with whiplash injury and regular bouts of neck pain I have began to look elsewhere for help with the pain !!

The Alexander technique is mindful movement . Learning to use your body as it was meant to move !! It’s proving very useful but I find when you are busy the mindfulness is getting lost both in the movement and mind !

I assume the key is regular meditation .

Going to promise myself a half hour every second day and see what difference it makes .

introduction to the Alexander technique