emotions, god, Simple

It all looks different in the light

We got up at 230 this morning to walk 5 km for a charity!

We started walking at 4 in the dark and watched the sun rise and heard the dawn chorus of birdsong .

The walk is done every year for the charity pieta house who look after people with suicidal thoughts to try and prevent suicide .

There were people there who were walking in memory of lost loved ones who had been lost to suicide .

It was emotional , it was strange being up in the middle of the night. It was beautiful to watch the sun rise and hear the birds waking up .

The walk is called darkness into light . I thought it symbolised hope ,light at the end of the tunnel .

The darkness of depression feels like a hole out of which you can’t come !

We walked around a park for an hour and it was only when we were walking back to the car that we noticed deer , a strange little house , and even a pheasant .

My sister said on the way back to the car “my god everything looks so different in the light ”

And I realised the importance of that comment .

We had been in the same place but in the dark we didn’t see the beauty that was around us !

Being depressed before , I know how it feels and that’s exactly it . You are so lost in the dark space in your head that you can’t even see what’s in front of your nose !

When you rise in the morning, give thanks for the light, for your life, for your strength. Give thanks for your food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason to give thanks, the fault lies in yourself.

It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.
Aristotle Onassis





god, mindfulness, Simple

Look around you

I’m struck by the world around me now that I’m practising mindfulness!

How beautiful is the world around us !

We need to stop and look around us .

The miracle is all around us !

The cherry blossom is in bloom .

There are only 3 weeks every year that the cherry blossom is in bloom .

How does it know when to bloom , how does it know that now is the time !

I look at my 3 children . They are also miracles ?

Conception is like a lottery and baby development so complex and yet it occurs every day all around the world without any direction from us .

We worry so much and feel we are in control of so much although the miracles around us are not in our control at all !

These beautiful pictures were taken in our back garden. We’ve lived here along time and I’m only really seeing for the first time .

“From barren brown stems to glistening leaf-buds; from the leaf-buds to snowy virginity of bloom…It was like a flute song forgotten in another existence and remembered again. What? How? Why? This singing she heard that had nothing to do with her ears. The rose of the world was breathing out smell. It followed her through all her waking moments and caressed her in her sleep.”
― Zora Neale Hurston, Their Eyes Were Watching God







god, Uncategorized

Lost phone

Well I lost my phone over the last few days .

I have searched everywhere , I’ve. Retraced my steps .

I’ve been so angry with myself . “How stupid , how useless am I ”

I wasn’t as mindful as I normally am because I was annoyed about something else .

And yet again if I’m upset or annoyed I get lost in my head and lose sight of what’s around me?

I was asking myself universe what are you trying to tell me and then I came across this on Facebook ,

How apt

God: Sure
Me: Promise You won’t get mad … … … … …
God: I promise
Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today?
God: What do u mean?
Me: Well, I woke up late
God: Yes
Me: My car took forever to start
God: Okay
Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait
God: Huummm
Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call
God: All right
Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn’t work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?
God: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that
Me (humbled): OH
GOD: I didn’t let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.
Me: (ashamed) God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn’t want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn’t afford to miss work.
Me (embarrassed):Okay
God: Your phone went dead bcuz the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn’t even let you talk to them so you would be covered.
Me (softly): I see God
God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn’t think you wanted to be in the dark.
Me: I’m Sorry God
God: Don’t be sorry, just learn to Trust Me…. in All things , the Good & the bad.
Me: I will trust You.
God: And don’t doubt that My plan for your day is Always Better than your plan.
Me: I won’t God. And let me just tell you God, Thank You for Everything today.
God: You’re welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I Love looking after My Children.
post and image from
I Love Jesus, by iLoveJesusonline.com