Birthday girl

This day 6 years ago I was lying petrified in a hospital bed knowing that I was going to become a mother the next day .

I was petrified for a long time and found the whole transition to motherhood a scary ,soul searching ,guilty laden journey .

Looking back I was very depressed but I felt I was just a useless mother .

It’s only on recent year when I let go of the need to be right , of the need to know what I’m doing that I Veblen able to enjoy my children more ..

They have been my teachers.

I adore them to bits and love the journey we are now on !

I saw this and thought it was so true .

“No mother is ever, completely, a child’s idea of what a mother should be, and I suppose it works the other way around as well. But despite everything, we didn’t do too badly by one another, we did as well as most.”
― Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid’s Tale

I only started to enjoy being a mammy when I realised I could only do my best ,and that was going to have to be good enough !

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Liebster award

I have been nominated for the Liebster award by the fabulous Kim at life byKimmy.

What is this I hear you say !

The liebster award is an award for up and coming bloggers with less than 200 followers .

It seems like a good way to get to know people and get your blog out there , wherever out there is !

It seems like a nice way to feel what you are doing means something .

What do you do .
Post 11 facts about you
Well you answer the 11 questions posed by your nominater, nominate 11 other bloggers and pose them 11 new questions !

So here goes

My name is Fiona fallon

I am happily married

I have 3 children aged 5,4 and 2

I am a doctor who works part time

I have suffered from depression and anxiety

I have read lots of books to try and help myself

I love movies

I love books

I have recently done a course in mindfulness which I found life changing

I try to meditate

I love people

The questions I’ve been asked

1 what do I hope to achieve with my blog .

I work as a family physician, I’m a working mum.ive had depression .my parents are divorced . I’ve had many stresses in my life and meet people under stress every day .ive read so much to try and help myself and others that I hope to share and learn about dealing with day to day stress .

I’ve read so many self help books , I hoped to help someone other than myself !

2 what have I learned about blogging so far ? Keep going even when you think no one is listening . It in itself is cathartic.

3 I actively follow 15 . This should be more
If money was no object
4 I would write a book while at home with my kids . I would work one day a week as family doctor because it is a privilege to loll after people .

5 do I see myself blogging in 5 years yes definitely

6 something weird about me I am an ACOD

7 I have travelled but I’m really a home bird which is Dublin ireland

8 cats or dogs dogs but I’m being converted into cats by my in laws

9 what do I hope people will think of me when they read my blog? She seems nice

10 where do I start my blog I work with day to day life the books I’ve read and quotes I’ve found helpful

11 coffee

I am nominating

Fluxand flow

Abstract Organised Chaos

Children’s Books Lots to say lots to learn

My Bucket List in pictures

SweetTeaand Fried Chicken

Eyes Wide Open

Ellipsis Omnibus

ADelightfully sweet life

starship Oars

Wander glass photography

Let Art Speak

Please forgive me if you have more than 200 followers but get involved any way xx

My questions are

What is your favourite thing to do ?

What gets you through the tough times?

What are you reading at the moment?

What is your greatest achievement in life so far ?

What is the thing or person you are coveting at the moment ?

What are you looking forward to?

What are you grateful for today ?

What’s your favourite cookies or cake ?

What to you like about yourself ?

What your most vivid childhood memory ?

What do you hope to achieve with your blog ?.

I’m really looking forward to hearing from you all !

Remember this

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New day

The new day dawns , I spent 20 minutes with myself ! Instead of the usual jumping out of bed late trying to rally the troops to eat and get to school ,!

I had time to wonder what this new day would bring as I let the sleep naturally fall away from my eyes instead of the usual vigorous rubbing !

And I found this gem !

“Write it on your heart
that every day is the best day in the year.
He is rich who owns the day, and no one owns the day
who allows it to be invaded with fret and anxiety.

Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could.
Some blunders and absurdities, no doubt crept in.
Forget them as soon as you can, tomorrow is a new day;
begin it well and serenely, with too high a spirit
to be cumbered with your old nonsense.

This new day is too dear,
with its hopes and invitations,
to waste a moment on the yesterdays.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson, Collected Poems and Translations

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